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Explorations with a thing called trust.
kalibug16

"I can live without trust, right.?"


Im recently realizing that in life, The people you thought you trusted the most, can let you down the worst. Im jealous because i cant trust, im angry because i cant trust and however hard i may try, theres always a little something telling me, you can never be too sure. But my question is, why am i having such a hard time trusting even the most important people in my life when i have been in almost zero situations that give me a reason to not trust. To tell you the truth, i thought about it and it all comes down to fear, silly as it sounds, the worst thing that has ever happend to me was having my heart broken. Maybe i havnt experianced life as some would say. But i have experianced quit a bit. Trusting someone gives them an open to breaking my heart whoever it is, my parents,my boyfriend, even my friends, and , having my heartbroken is the last thing on my aggenda.So what should i do?They say you cant love without trust, but i love everyday. Is there a specific weekly class i can take in order to feel at ease with this issue?The questions go unanswerd because i have no idea how to let down a wall that has built itself so strong, and until i get rid of my fear, i dont think that wall is coming down anytime soon.Hopefully someday i'll be sprinkled with trust dust or something. Anything helps:)


Love kalie

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